I have thought about the faithfulness of God recently. I wish I would think of it more often. But, sometimes life grabs hold of me and I forget. This weekend was an incredible one and one in which it would be hard to not remember God's faithfulness. We have prayed for months about BBC and Emily attending it. Neither Mark nor I had seen it nor had we known anything about it before Emily had her heart set on it. So all we could do is pray. I also had been praying about the transition for Em; that us leaving her there would not be too hard on her. God went far beyond anything I had ever dreamed of asking.
I was sharing with a good friend about my emotions and thoughts of our moment of having to say goodbye; knowing that I would be leaving my little girl at a place 7 1/2 hours away... not knowing when I would see her next. I imagined that Emily and I would both be sobbing and that I would be in tears quite often and probably at times I least expected it. But God had given us such an incredible peace that Emily was where He wanted her to be that the last emotion I felt was sadness. I am so excited for her! It is time for Emily to have the focus on her instead of her focusing on helping out around here. I want her to experience life to it's fullest. I want her to have time without 2 little ones at her feet and without constantly trying to make my life easier. I want her to have this time for HER! And she is just bubbling. I think that she had no idea the burden that she felt at home, trying to make my life easier. She took the eldest role very seriously. She felt responsibility to fill in the gaps in my life. I love her for that, but I want the focus on her and for her to grow without the burdens of younger children. Oh how I am excited for my little girl! I can't wait to watch God's plan unfold.
As for the rest of our life, we are experiencing lots of challenges; but I am reminded of God's faithfulness. When we arrived home, we faced the challenge of our well. We have NO water and haven't had any since we left. We run out of water nearly daily, though until Friday morning when we left, it had been a few weeks since we had run out. We were rather surprised that it ran out so quickly that morning but we never thought about it because we loaded up into the van and left. On Sunday, I was a tad bit irritable. Mark gave me a look that lovingly made me realize how irritable I was being. I smiled and gave him a hug saying "This weekend has been tough, I didn't need to come home to no water". He smiled and held me and simply said "yes you did". I knew what he meant. It made me laugh. I told him "Ok, but I didn't want it".
He is right, you know. Romans 8:28 says
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. So I know that I must need this and that God will work it out for my good. I am choosing to rejoice even though at times I really, really want my water back and I know that we are facing the high possibility of having to dig a deeper well and replace a pump.
Erin has received some good news from one of the colleges that her heart has been set on. She is in a situation of having 3 different colleges offer her a scholarship. It is a nice problem to have. She needs to spend time in prayer so that she can choose the right college (not necessarily the dream college, but the one that God would have her to be). It is difficult not to make decisions based on finances; especially during this day and age. But having left Emily at BBC, I am even more convinced that finances are not the determining factor!
She was selected as one of the captains of her soccer team. She and one of her best friends are co-captains. It is neat to see them as the leaders. They both deserve that honor. I think I have mentioned this before, but I felt compelled to mention it again. As school begins, she has some tough responsibilities. She is taking 2 (maybe 3) AP classes (college level) with no study hall. She is a section leader in the marching band, captain of the varsity soccer team, President of the Senior class, President of student council, vice-president of the National Honor Society, Senior Mentor, Dare ambassador, Big Buddy, a member of the debate team, and a member of FCA. I think I hit it all, but who knows with Erin. She is hoping that these accomplishments will help her gain some scholarships for college. Despite receiving very nice soccer scholarships, there is still a nice balance; especially if she were to choose a christian school.
Sam has an incredibly hard schedule as well. He is taking a block class of chemistry and biology. It is very tough to do. He is also taking honors geometry and honors English and Spanish III. He has no study halls. He is playing on the JV soccer team and in the marching band. He is also still guarding at our pool (until Sept 7). With soccer and Marching band, neither Sam nor Erin will be able to get home until 9:00 or later at night. It is very crazy!
Jacob is very excited about homeschool. We will begin some today. He is very intersted in the stock market right now, so we are planning to do some "mock investing". He was very intrigued by some abstract art work at the fair this year. So he has scupted a man out of chicken wire. It really is amazing. He is now paper macheing it. Once it is completed, he will put news articles/ magazine ads/ etc on it to represent that what we read shapes us. It is an amazing concept. I am really excited about it.
Well, I am planning on breaking down today and purchasing more space on the web. I just have to actually do it. Hopefully we will be posting pictures by tonight.
Emily - I love you, baby! Have a great day at school. Enjoy your last "free" day. I will be praying for an incredible beginning of classes.